*silently whispers*

Just because I cling to you, just because I talk too much with you, just because I try to be with you all the time, just because I try to be the best with you, just because I try to act wonderfully in front of you....

Doesn't mean I am an attention whore. 

I just can't bear to see you go. I'm just scared that if I turn around and look for you...you wouldn't be there...that you would be gone and that I wouldn't have anyone to be with anymore. No hand to hold, no voice to hear, no smile to see. It scares me...pains me so much to think if you were gone...that as much as possible, I push these thoughts away...only for them to come back once you're not around. 

And that even with my strongest willpower to smile, I may not stop the tears that come after that.

I'm scared...I really am. So please...just...don't...